I just found out that one of my cousins is pregnant, she’s having a boy and the baby’s due August 30th. She’s three years younger than I am, single and is about to end the only career she’s ever had. But still, for some strange reason I feel a little jealous. I’m 26, I have a degree, a fairly fulfilling job and a husband, so what reason would I have to be jealous of her? I don’t know but I am. I mean I could have kids if I wanted to, God knows my husband wants them, but I don’t feel like I’m ready and I don’t know why. There are a lot of things I still want to do but there all doable with a child. My husband and I make enough to financially support one, and I love children, but I just don’t want any of my own right now. I know that there are deeper issues related to this but I don’t want to confront those issues because they could possibly end my marriage. i just don’t know what to do or how I should feel.